Grandia Creator Dies.

Takeshi Miyaji dies suddenly at 45 years of age.

I've played Grandia 1, 2, Xtreme, and 3 and they were my favorite JRPGs of all time.  I also played Lunar, but that was just okay.  And for some reason the Square RPGs didn't speak to me personally in the way the GameArts / Grandia games did, especially Grandia II with the bittersweet theme.  It was also the first time I was faced head-on with the the prospect of just how gray and un-black and white eastern philosophy can be.

So this recent news got to me the way the passing of Satoshi Kon did.  And for someone who quite possibly may not leave a genetic mark on the world, it becomes even more imperative to at least leave an intellectual, or even spiritual mark through creative media.

But to cut to the chase, I am envious.  I am envious of everyone with skills, whether it's writing, programming, or art.  I am envious also of people who have time -- that means full-time indies or those taking up this hobby to get course credits, thereby killing two birds with one stone.
I just want to make this work because my projects are begging to be made.  Though I originally started out wanting "fame and fortune", my primary motivation is just this outlet that enables me to share my thoughts to the world.  Taleweaver sent me outlines for recommended ways to take the story.  While I will adapt the template, I do have key concepts which I would want to write personally.  I cannot wait until the day I have all assets complete so that I can take one weekend off, load up on coffee / or be in a fit of passion or whatever, and just crank out those thoughts, brutally, and honestly.